Monday, September 21, 2009

Thoughts & Best Wishes for Mistress

Mistress, i sincerely hope You are feeling better. i am very sorry that You were not feeling up to using me today. As soon as You are up to it, i would love to be Your toilet.

Being a toilet slave is mostly about managing boredom. They say that absence makes the heart grow fonder and for a toilet in service, i have to agree. Bound to my toilet bench, waiting for Mistress to need to use me, is the ultimate in anticipation. With nothing to do but wait for Mistress to place Her Goddess bottom on my face to relieve Her requirements, my senses seem to be on edge. Every sound, listening intently, is amplified. Wondering when She will need me drives my every sense to strain… wondering when/if i will see Her. Then, excitement… Mistress comes in to use the bathroom. She doesn’t regard me, only turns and sits. my function is clear… i am only useful to Her to consume Her waste. i am the ultimate in recycling. All to quickly, She is done. After cleaning Herself (or me cleaning Her), she pulls up Her pants and She’s gone. All to quickly, the object of my adoration is gone. But it is always worth it. To see Mistress, to be Her object of waste disposal, if only for a few seconds is bliss. Mistress, i am Your toilet… Your object that You use for Your benefit.

Thank You Goddess

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Background

i doubt that anyone will be following this blog except for my Owner, but just in case, a little background and warning is in order.

i am a slave to Mistress Kristian, under contract to Her for at least one year. i have known and served Mistress as a sub for around a year part time as a Pro Domme and it has been an outstanding experience. About a month ago, Mistress approached me with an amazing proposal. Rather than continuing with pro type sessions, She offered me unbelievable option of being a real, contractually obligated, slave to Her. Now, here's where the warning comes in... most often i am a toilet slave to Mistress.. a FULL toilet slave. For anyone under 18 or those not familiar with what i am speaking of, please leave and find out before following!

i know to most that this is an "unorthodox" or "gross" type of slavery but to me, and many others in the lifestyle, it is the most submissive of services and a true honor to be owned as such a slave to a Goddess such as my Mistress. However, within a few confines of the contract (such as STD health, etc) Mistress owns the right to who uses me and how. i am not just a toilet to Her but also can be disciplined as She desires, worship Her as She desires, and be loaned or used by who She chooses. i am not bi, but Mistress owns the right to force that as well.

More often than not, She will be the only one who uses me, though. She has to right to have me serve several times a month from anywhere from 4 hour to multiple day sessions as a bound toilet. Mistress will bind be on a bench beneath a toilet chair and only consider me when She needs to rid Her body of some type of waste product (solid or liquid). i must consume all of what is given or suffer Her disappoint and wrath.

i am filled with nervous anticipation of the coming year. How will i do? What all will She require? Will i meet Her standards? However, more than anything i am filled with a deep sense of honor and privilege. i've often dreamed of such a situation but never though it would be fulfilled and especially by a Goddess of the Royal caliber of my Owner. i may never ask to have any type of sexual relations with Mistress. She will let me know if and when that is desired but truth be told, being Her full and without limit toilet holds great gratification to me. Taking a part of my Mistress Kristian's body in to mine, consuming Her waste as my nourishment, provides a deeper sense of honor, respect, loyalty, and gratification than most "vanilla" people can possibly know. It is exceptionally difficult, sure. Especially the brown sometimes. But it is a part of my Goddess from deeper within Her than anything else could be. She is my royal Goddess Owner.

Sure, Mistress is very beautiful. A Goddess on the outside but She is so much more on the inside. Her attitude.. Her very soul... helps complete me. She is so much more beautiful on the inside than even Her stunning looks are on the outside. Being an object that such a heavenly creature uses to rid Her body of its waste products is more of a privilege than most ever know. Outside of a session i am a person but once the "collar" goes on, i am an object for Her use. my only reason for being is to serve Her as a foot stool, foot cleaner, toilet, etc. i give myself over to Her with excitement and honor each time. She is so far above me that to only be something She uses is a deep and utter privilege. She has already become so much to me that words cannot describe how deeply grateful i am that She has chosen me to be one of Her real-life toilet slaves. i am sure that as the year progresses, i will become even more of an object to Her but my hope is to become one of Her most prized possessions!!

Why am i writing this blog?? As a condition of my contract, i must post at least 2 updates per month as to my feelings/emotions/progress as a slave. i must say that it was a wonderful idea by Mistress... though She is always full of wonderful ideas.

Thank You so much for this opportunity, Mistress Kristian!! i adore You fully and completely!!! i shall obey all commands and accept with open arms Your dominance over me... Your view of me as little more than an object to be used by You... Your living toilet bowl.

Your adoring and humble slave

slave m425

Thursday, September 17, 2009

First Post

my first post for Mistress Kristian to view & review. i sincerely hope everything goes according to plan tomorrow.

More to follow... this is a "test"