Continued Thoughts From 1/17 Post

i am drawn, more and more, to stories on line where the slave is kept as a permanent toilet; often "built" into part of the house where it serves as a 24/7 toilet for its Mistress and whomever else She decides to allow use it.

While i understand that these writings are works of fiction as no one could live a very long lifetime in 24/7/365 toilet slavery, to a slave such as i, the concept/idea is beautifully pure. The concept of such utterly complete submission, slavery, and objectification is highly intriguing to this toilet. How could a toilet and its Owner reach a level as close to "perfect objectification" as possible? Mistress seems to enjoy the concept of viewing me as only a toilet once bound in to a device. i can't help but surmise that She too would be interested in making service to Her as realistic as possible as well. i cannot help but believe that Mistress Kristian would enjoy owning and using a pure toilet. As i mentioned in my earlier posting, this concept has been on the slave's mind for some time, though compounded since it's chastity experience. This has been the journey of the slave since it began its contract slavery. Each idea feeds another so as to feed an even better idea of object toilet slavery for Mistress Kristian. i hope that my latest idea will prove to have finally "gotten it right".... toilet chain, toilet box, finally (i hope) wider toilet box with a "body lid". A few of these ideas were already posted in my last blog update & some i have not. i wanted to explore them each in a bit more detail. Hopefully this exploration will please Mistress Kristian as She reviews them. i am very sure, given Her superiority over the slave, Goddess will have many wonderful suggestions to add. my Goddess is so intelligent and creative. The slave always anticipates with great longing Her input.

Instead of making unrealistic alterations to a home (as in the works of fiction) the box idea came to mind; painted and looking very much a piece of furniture. i truly think that enclosing the slave's body inside a piece of furniture would help significantly to get the slave in the proper mind set for its service. It should serve to bring the reality of what it truly is (and its function) to the slave... it's only contact to the outside the round toilet seat opening when Mistress raises and lowers it to use the toilet. The lid should also, i would guess, better allow Mistress Kristian to look upon the toilet as a "thing" to be used as She alone desires. A box is an object and as such, the slave bound within becomes a part of that object.

The slave also explored the idea of "guaranteed consumption" in my earlier post. A large ring gag might do the trick but it would not allow for "chewing" if required. Perhaps, if guaranteed full consumption is desired by Goddess, the nose plug idea could work and still allow the slave the use of its mouth to "process". Mistress Kristian has thus far not provided any guidance in this area and (as in all things pertaining to my slavery to Her) the decision resides solely with Goddess as i am Her property.

There has been a good deal written in this blog on chastity since my punishment. While i truly do not wish to endure it for that length (or longer) again, as a slave i must admit its virtues. Longer term chastity certainly aids the slave to get in to the proper mindset (as i experienced first hand) and as such, is both a very useful punishment tool as well as a training aid to Mistress. i feel it would be a valuable tool for Mistress to use on Her toilet to prepare it for service, especially if the service was to be long term use. (If there are new followers to this blog, please reference December's entries in regards to the slave's conclusions of the punishments and virtues of long term chastity).

Speaking is usually, and i'm sure will continue to be, forbidden. However, once the reality of the toilet's situation and the plight endured, how to keep a toilet from speaking? Mental & verbal preparation of the toilet by Mistress would help but what about punishments? Given that the slave is enclosed in a box, immediate corporal punishment would be difficult for a speaking transgression. The slave's face would still be easily accessible so there may be potential options available there. Another option is something like a TENS unit with wires fed through the box via small holes and attached to the slave's genitals. Mistress, i do not believe, is particularly interested in electro-CBT but the idea bears mentioning for Her consideration. Frankly, the idea of electro-CBT scares the hell out of this slave!!! However, this very fact is why the slave mentions it here. i'm sure it would be a very effective speech/sound control device due in large part to this fear. This slave is sure that Mistress would have plenty of ideas & ways to punish Her slave for breaking this rule. A couch doesn't talk, a toilet doesn't talk, thus a toilet slave should not speak as well. The presence of impending punishment would also serve the slave well in its "encouragement" of serving others, should Mistress desire. As a follower of this blog knows, within a few limited confines, who Mistress allows to use Her toilet slave is vested solely with Her.

The one issue i cannot seem to get around is the disposal of the slave's own waste. i think i have a solution to the slave's #1 but #2 is very problematic for long term fully bound toilet service. Short of an "adult diaper" i cannot find a way around being released from time to time to properly relieve the slave's own waste. i'll keep researching but thus far the only ideas i've found come from the works of fiction i mentioned in the opening paragraph of this posting.

True, utter, and complete long term toilet slavery has become a pervasive desire of this slave. it longs for the full and total submission of being a "true" toilet. its deepest desires and dreams not realistic but the slave continues to strive to get as close to the point of being a fully objectified toilet kept for long term use and service. The slave truly hopes to reach the point of accepting Mistress's gifts without any thought from Her at all and so used for extended periods of time. Sure, my night time "dreams" consist of being a full time full toilet but in the real world this is not possible (i don't think). However, reaching that goal as closely as possible (i.e., longer term use toilet slave) is a beautiful journey. The thought of such deep and complete submission to Goddess Kristian, giving Her the gift of full and utter use of a total toilet slave as She and She alone see's fit, is a driving force for the slave. As a Dominate Goddess and Owner of toilets, i believe that Mistress Kristian would appreciate this gift greatly.

i miss You, dear Mistress Kristian and hope all is well with You!!!

Thoughts of Objectification

During O/our last meeting, Mistress Kristian and i discussed another revision to the toilet box/bench design. Hopefully the cold weather is finally breaking and it will now be possible to begin work on it. Basically it will be the same as the one i posted earlier only wider. This will hopefully allow for longer term use and more complete immobilizing bondage. The one "major" difference in this device and the others is most likely going to be the addition of a removable box to cover the slave's entire body. i envision a "lid" that can be set over the slave once it is bound on to its bench, removing the toilet slave's body from view. That way the only part of the slave that Mistress would see is its face; and only then for a brief period of time as the seat's lid is raised and lowered. Why remove the slave from Mistress view? It is this slave's hope that it will make it even easier for Her to totally objectify the slave as a "part" of the house.

Objectification has always been a key point of this slave's submissive nature and something it hopes to explore and reach as fully and perfectly as possible. However, since my chastity punishment several weeks ago, the thought of "perfect objectification" has been more and more of a driving factor in the slave's mind. i hope to reach the point that Mistress Kristian can use the toilet as She requires and desires without any regard of the toilet at all. She would do Her golden or brown as naturally as possible, without concern of Her toilet. i figure that the more the slave looks like a part of the house, the easier it would be for Her to truly view the slave within as nothing but a toilet. i often wonder about "guaranteed consumption". Should the toilet have its nose plugged or perhaps a large o-ring gag? i lean towards nose blockage as the best option but am curious. i am also curious about the length of time that a slave could subsist off of nothing but its Mistress's golden and brown. Days for sure but longer with a multi-vitamin??

i hope to find some answers to these questions. i have been doing some searching on line and hopefully the truth will also be revealed through continued service to Mistress Kristian. i dream, quite literally, of being nothing but an object for days at a time to Her. i hope that the latest design, once completed, will bring me closer to that goal.

A Complete Surprise!!

Mistress Kristian blessed Her toilet slave with a most unexpected text message and gift! i had given up hope of seeing Goddess for a while as She was unable to come up for the Holidays and given Her upcoming schedule requirements. Out of the "blue" the slave received a text yesterday afternoon informing it that She would be up here today and would allow the slave the privilege of serving Her!!! What a wonderful New Year's gift for the slave and most unexpected. The only "down side" (as if anything involved in serving Mistress Kristian could be that) was that W/we would need to meet up in Her home town which meant a hotel room. As such, the toilet bench would be left at home. i was disappointed for Mistress Kristian as She would not get to experience the full "Ownership" of the slave. Of course, this did not and does not matter to the slave because getting to see Mistress under ANY circumstances is just fine with the toilet. For this slave, there is never a "down side" in seeing Goddess. Hopefully, She still enjoyed the session as well.

It was a fairly short meeting as She was pressed for time but it was yet another wonderful and interesting session! It was, to say the least, a most unusual session based upon my prior service to Goddess. In regards to being Her toilet, She only used the slave for some brown and a little golden. However, joy upon all joy, Mistress Kristian allowed Her toilet to be Her toilet paper following Her brown!!!! i cannot describe the joy the slave takes in cleaning Mistress Kristian... it is such an utter and complete privilege that is not given all the time.

Most of the session was spent talking and catching up on things. It was absolutely wonderful and a better time spent in conversation the slave cannot remember! We discussed life in general, how sorry the slave was for upsetting Her last month (it was the first time i have been able to apologize to Mistress face to face), the toilet's punishment (including some of the dreams experienced during the chastity), the slave's blog postings, and some ideas of new services / toilet benches. Mistress Kristian is so very intelligent and such a beautiful conversationalist. i was only used briefly but at least it helped to keep the slave in practice for its next full use session. However, i don't think that i will ever forget this day!!!! i hope Mistress enjoyed discussing BDSM topics, life, and future plans close to as much as i did. i believe She noticed, but i was actually "giddy" when She first arrived with the thrill of just getting to see Goddess! In so many ways, in so many depths, Mistress Kristian is truly special. This gift given the slave today by Mistress... first surprising the slave with Her arrival and then allowing time for discussions... is so very precious to this slave. i love serving Mistress Kristian. i am privileged to be Her toilet, i am honored when She "objectifies" the slave as little more than a toilet during the sessions, but today was such an unexpected change of pace. Every time i see and serve Mistress Kristian is special but today is one of those rare moments as it was not anticipated! This slave is fortunate to have been chosen as one of Her toilets but is truly lucky to know such a rare and Divine creature as Goddess Kristian!!

Side note: Mistress, i know it wasn't much, but i do hope You liked Your Christmas presents (especially the main one). You seemed to like them and i do hope that You did! It was a true pleasure to give You something for the Holidays.

Thank You Mistress Kristian!!! Thank You for the surprise gift of Your presence! Thank You for allowing time for the slave to see and serve You! Thank You beloved Goddess !!!!!