1st August Update

It has been a long time since i have served Maitresse Kristian!! Way too long for a series of reasons... since before Easter. However, i still find myself longing for Her and dreaming of serving Her. i can say this with all truth....... i would rather be Maitresse Kristian's owned and controlled toilet slave than anything else! If for some reason i were given the choice to continue to be able to have as much sex with whomever and whenever i wanted... to make decisions of what i do for fun and when... or be Her owned and more or less full time toilet slave outside of work, etc and never be allowed to make any sexual decision again... perhaps never even masturbate again... i would choose to be Her toilet slave! i would choose to have my free time spent in a professionally built toilet slave bench locked away in a closet or bathroom in Her home. i would choose to give up any rights to sexual freedom; self gratification or with others. i would choose to be an object She owns and uses how She desires... to suffer boredom and frustration and loss of freedom of decisions for the one and only honor of consuming and disposing of Her pee, scat, spit, nails, and anything else She desires. i would choose to receive nothings for days at a time but the wastes Her Body offers.

W/we have talked about serving as a long-term toilet to Her (for a few days)... i so hope it happens. i want... i long.. to be treated, regarded, and know i am nothing but a thing to receive Her gifts. Though i may desire it once i begin the service, i sincerely ask for no reprieve or compassion... but to be an object... a slave with but one purpose that will be punished severely for failure. Gagged to accept all that is required. This is my hope for the near future and i pray i shall serve Maitresse again.