November Service & New Set-Up

It has been a good while since my last update partly due to computer issues and partly due to an intensive travel schedule. However, in November i was completely blessed to have served Maitresse Kristian two different times. The first time was very disappointing as, of not great surprise, my performance was not very good. i had been out of practice given the time since my last service and i was a very poor toilet. However, the second time, though only golden was required, i believe i was a much more functional toilet. Should i have the honor of serving Her again in December i believe i will be a fully functioning toilet again. In fact, my request to Goddess was to use me a naturally as possible the next time as i think i'm ready. my humble opinion is that She should simply sit and do Her "business" the next time without a single care for me. If i screw up, there should most likely be pain involved for the slave.

i made a significant adjustment to the toilet box system this time. Rather than have it in a bathroom, i cleared a closet and put it in a walk-in closet. The door won't close as i need a few more inches but the door to the bedroom is at least able to be closed. As another modification for the second visit i played with a sheet to block off the view of my body, strung between the closet shelves. With the sheet, the only thing Maitresse would see is my face. With the bedroom door shut, most all sound was blocked out. Especially during my second service, i was taken closer to the place i so long to find... to become nothing but Her toilet. There was no real sense of time with what little light filtered in. i didn't really know if it had been minutes or hours since She last peed. There was no "mental stimulation" from external stimuli though i did strain to hear something.. anything... without much luck. It seemed that Maitresse had been able to indeed forget about me and was going about whatever She was doing. It was wonderful. i was closer to becoming what i truly long for than ever before.

i have written extensively of my longing for very long service to Maitresse. Of being Her toilet and nothing else to Her but just that for days, weeks, months, years without any form of sexual release... just Her body's wastes and the wastes of those She so chooses to allow to use me. If Maitresse ever moved back up this way, i could see the closet toilet box as my new "home" much of the time... or if i were able to move down there. my dream is to be as much of a lifestyle toilet to Maitresse Kristian as She desires. If She were to build me permanent in to Her home i think i would jump at the chance. There are a few more minor things i need to fix, such as perhaps a wider air mattress, but i think i am close to being able to be Her toilet for a very long period/session. i hope it is time to serve Her in the manor She deserves and, i think, desires. i hope i am very close to being able to become nothing but an object to Her once the cuffs are on. i hope i am close to becoming Her perfect toilet... something She uses and owns without any care or concern.... the deepest of objectification slavery as a piece of furniture. W/we discussed briefly "lifestyle" toilet slavery though i have not heard back what this term would actually mean to the Devine One. i'll be interested to hear if She is looking at another session in December.

i dream of my next service, Maitresse Kristian. Thank You so very much for November!!