February Blessing

Luck upon all luck.. this humble slave received a great honor in seeing the Goddess Maitresse Kristian last week! Words cannot describe how thrilled i was to again see my beloved Owner. Her Goddess body offered the slave its true nourishment. However, the slave was very disappointed in the toilet bench's workings. The good news is that i have begun working on a new design. i think this third and final design will work very well and i sincerely hope it does. i never want to disappoint my Owner and She wants a longer term use slave bed. And more than anything, i want to be Her long term toilet. W/we looked in to using nose plugs to guarantee consumption though the first attempt was not extremely effective. i continue to believe that this is a good idea and hope to investigate it further. While laying bound to my bench i had several thoughts and they have dominated my thoughts ever since.

i have written about my considerations and thoughts regarding long term slavery, toilet service, chastity, and deeper Ownership. i am looking for employment closer to Maitresse Kristian so as to be able to serve Her more often and better. i've sent 3 resumes out with no response thus far. Of course, it is a tough economy but i have hope that i will locate employment that will put me much closer to Her.

If Maitresse Kristian would ever consider such an option, and if i can get closer to Her to make it feasible, i would offer Maitresse Kristian the slave. i have came to the ultimate conclusion that i am a slave... that i am a toilet. It would be the ultimate completion of this slave to be owned 24/7 by Her. To be, very much, Her property. A toilet that is used, kept, and thought little of during service. Perhaps for a day, perhaps for days. Perhaps my "home" would be a cage while in Her presence and not in service, perhaps not. Never the less, a truly "owned" slave. i would ask for very few limits... shared with Her other slaves to provide them pleasure if She so desired, punished (more about pain below) as She desires, and all authorizations for sexual release vested with Her. i would give any opportunity and authorization of slave pleasure to Her. i'm very sure i would become desperate for release but only She would have the power to allow it. Perhaps the slave would learn the ultimate truth that a toilets only real pleasure comes from serving its Mistress with the utmost perfection. i can say, with some hesitation but great conviction, my deepest desire, my most true longing, would be to be fully owned by Goddess. The reality would probably hit home hard but i would never the less want a contract that would guarantee compliance... to be molded and formed in to a perfect slave.

Maitresse has never applied any real physical pain to Her slave. i cannot help but wonder why? It's not that i'm a pain slut or anything like that... just curious. i feel that perhaps it would assist in the reinforcement of what the slave is. i would accept any punishment She would so choose as best i could. The idea scares the slave but could at the same time be highly effective.

Thank You again Goddess for Your visit to the slave. Thank You with all my being for gracing me with Your divine presence. You have become such an important part of the slave's life! i hope to serve You more often very soon!!