Just Thoughts

Maitresse never ceases to amaze this slave! She is full of wonderful and intriguing surprises. i was lucky enough for Maitresse to allow me a bit of a glimpse in to Her world the other day. i cannot believe how strong, determined, and intelligent She truly is! i already knew each of these adjectives about Her but this rare look in to Her day to day life... Her trials, tribulations, and challenges... further cemented how utterly impressed with Goddess i truly am. Words cannot describe the joy i felt as She confided in Her slave! She is the epitome of strength and determination and i worship Her as such.

i continue to watch the job boards and something will give, i'm sure, soon! i continue to think of Maitresse and ownership and what would truly complete this slave. i have came to a final conclusion. i would, without looking back, give myself to full and complete Ownership to Maitresse. i would give up the right to any unauthorized sexual relief and who/how i am used as a slave! my place as a slave is as a toilet object / property. If Maitresse should ever desire to own this slave as nothing but a long term, frequent use toilet and nothing more, i would be honored. i long to be turned in to Her property and relegated to a piece of property and a functioning waste disposal device for Maitresse for as long as She would desire. i don't have tons of $$$ and i'm not all that good looking.... but i do have utter devotion to Goddess Kristian and know my place as Her object of Divine waste disposal. i long for nothing greater than to be turned by Her in to the strictest, most realistic, toilet slave She desires to Own.

If luck is on my side, i shall find myself in beneath, and in the service of, Supreme Kristian in the coming days/week. i hope and pray that Her plans work out and i am able to again serve Her! Oh, going in to the 10th day of no smoking... not since Monday a week ago at around 2:00!! It has not been easy and the only thing that keeps me "going" is Goddess and my desire to not disapoint Her!