Saturday, May 29, 2010

New Idea For toilet slave Use

i have not been able to serve Maitresse as of yet but i so long to be beneath Her. She was up this way but W/we could not meet at the time because of an infection i had. She had mentioned that perhaps W/we would meet this weekend for service to Her.

i had a new idea that Maitresse seemed to be interested in. First though, i have purchased a new funnel gag that will guarantee that the toilet will consume all of Her golden and She can pee as much as She needs to without stopping, etc for the slave to catch up. i think this will be a wonderful addition and look forward to experiencing it's use. my humble idea posed to Goddess was to get a hotel room close to where ever She was (or She use the room i would get to stay in). She could then come and go as She pleased, stopping in to use the toilet as She needed. i would only be of use to Her as as Her bathroom and then She could leave me again, bound and gagged.

To be honest, such a scenario is even more interesting to this humble toilet for an extended period (a few days). i worship Goddess Kristian. Being Her toilet completes me and Her body nourishes me. Being locked away (such as the hotel idea) for several days as a used and left toilet object living off of nothing but Her Royal golden and brown would be an ultimate dream (or close to it..... my ultimate dream involves continuous use as Her toilet and chastity slave for VERY long time). i hope i am given the gift of serving my Ultimate and Supreme Goddess. i need, in the depths of my bones, to feel Her indifference and objectification as She deposits Her Supreme wastes in to Her toilet.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Concerned & Confused

Unfortunately, i don't have much to update. i have not heard from my beloved Goddess, Maitresse Kristian for some time and have not served in a good while. i miss Her greatly. i miss Her voice, Her persona, just Her presence. i, of course, miss being Her toilet object as well. i never feel more alive than when She just ignores me and deposits Her wastes. i truly wish i could live off of nothing but the wastes of my Goddess for days and days at a time.... perhaps even week(s). The privilege of Her bottom sitting upon Her unworthy slave; freshly showered or following a night of dancing in the southern heat is no matter. i worship Her bottom and the gifts they bestow upon my unworthy self. i miss so deeply kneeling at the Supreme Maitresse's feet. Even if She does not allow Her slave to worship them. It is a unspeakable honor, though... worshiping Her feet. They are truly works of art! There is little to nothing i would not do to please my Goddess. She could "slut" me out to pleasure Her other slaves and i would be fine with it. Maitresse has thus far not issued corporal discipline upon Her slave. i truly wonder if some CBT applied vigorously to Her unworthy slave would please Goddess. i would gladly suffer heavy discipline of both my cock and balls to again serve under Maitresse Kristian. i miss Her so. i hope nothing is wrong. W/we have texted once but i have a feeling things are not going particularly well somehow. i wish Her the best... much more than She knows!! She is my Goddess, my Maitresse, my devotion.

i sincerely hope all is well, Goddess Kristian !!!!