11/16 Update

As part of my contract to Mistress Kristian, i am to do at least 2 updates per month.

i am sorry to report that thus far this month, i have nothing new to report in regards to my service to Her. i have not seen or served Mistress since Oct 4th. As such, i suppose the only update i have is one of disappointment in not being able to serve since. i have, to my knowledge, done everything asked of me by Mistress. i hope i have not upset Her. i am to report on emotions though, which was one of Mistress Kristian's instructions prior to entering this year long contract. my emotion right now is one of disappointment (at not being able to serve Mistress Kristian for so long) and borderline depression (i miss Her so). Hopefully She is just very busy and W/we will make up for lost time. Prior to the contract, Mistress & i seemed to be getting very close. Each time we saw each other the D/s relationship seemed to be deepening. i still adore Mistress Kristian as much as ever but at times i cannot help but wonder if She is not as interested in me as a slave as She once was. i really hope this is not the case. i truly thought that Mistress would take more of an interest in Her slave and that W/we would explore greater depths of toilet service but for some reason, it seems to be the opposite, at least in the short term. Like i said above, hopefully She is just busy with moving in to a new place and this is a small glitch that will be resolved soon. i'm sure if i could be used by Her for a longer period of time i would feel better. i just miss Her so much.

The only other update i have is that i finished my second design of a toilet slave bed & box. i think this will work very well when i do finally get to see Mistress. i'll post pics soon on another update.