11/22 & 11/23 Service: Post 2 of 2

i was going to make part 2 of the post thoughts and commentary on the session itself. However, it seems i really screwed up and Mistress is quite pisses at Her slave. Fortunately, there will be some discipline forthcoming (i will be told the exact nature tonight) and thus the slave will have an opportunity to make amends.

i made 3 dumb moves, well, 2 moves and 1 physical issue. Mistress had said, before She went to sleep, that She would be up around 9 or 10. At 10:30, this stupid slave entered Her room and respectfully awoke Her to see if She overslept. As i said, a stupid move!! The slave thought it was doing right at the time but now understands how stupid it was. The slave compounded the issue by entering the bathroom after She finished Her shower and left, not thinking that She would need to return for additional requirements (make-up, etc). After entering the bathroom, the slave took its place in its slave bed which has angered Mistress greatly. She would have much preferred to be alone. Again, not smart on the slave's part. i offer no excuses or explanation. Mistress is upset with Her slave's actions and the slave does not wish to anger Her more by offering its thoughts. The slave's thoughts (or even motivation) are not important. What is important is that Mistress is upset with Her slave. The last issue that upset Mistress was the slave verbally moaning & moving around too much in its slave bench toilet chair. Again, i offer no excuse. The situation was created by the slave entering the toilet bench on its own (without the help of Mistress Kristian) which put a significant pressure point on the shoulder of the slave (which was re-injured in a fall a few weeks ago). Again, the slave is totally at fault for moving around too much trying to find a better spot that did not cause shoulder pain. The slave should have not entered the bench itself (without the extra assistance afforded by Mistress). The slave also should have used its "Yellow" safe-word rather than fidget about. At least then the slave would have been given permission to speak and let Mistress Kristian know of the situation. It was stupid on the slave's part to have not done so.

The session itself was an honor as always. The bright spot for the slave was being able to flush a larger than usual amount of "brown". The slave had trouble with Mistress's "golden" last night, which is again unacceptable!!! All must be flushed without delay. For some reason, the slave did better with the brown than golden.

This slave offers its deepest and most sincere apologies to Mistress Kristian for angering Her. The slave awaits its punishment to offer amends to Mistress Kristian and to further prove itself to Her. Even more than a whip or a slap, Mistress's words of displeasure to the slave was amazingly effective. For a slave such as i, who truly takes pride, honor, and meaning in pleasing its Contract Owner, strong words of displeasure cut just as a knife would. i am deeply, truly, and whole-heartedly sorry for my stupidity, Mistress Kristian. The only comment the slave will make is that all it did it did in good faith in an effort to try and please Mistress Kristian. The effect was not as expected and therefore, unacceptable. Good intentions or good faith mistakes are still screw-ups and thus unacceptable for the slave's service. The end result is the most important and the end result was a series of screw-ups by the slave.

Please forgive me Mistress!!!! i will learn and grow from my mistakes!