Additional Thoughts - Last Service

The more i reflect upon O/our last session, the more the experience comes alive in my head. Although no brown was involved, only golden, the session took me to a place i had longed to go for so long. i had no sense of time... no sense of if i had been there for an hour or six. Very little light filtered in and with the bedroom door shut, no sound filtered in to the toilet slave room. Literally all i could do was await my Goddess to decide She needed to use Her slave. i began to slip in to the place i have sought... the objectification i have been hoping for.. the depth of slavery. However, i can only imagine what it is like for toilet slaves in such a position for extended period. What would it be like with no acknowledgement what so ever? Maitresse only using Her slave and using Her slave exactly as She wants.. no "holding back". What would i feel if i knew in advance that She may leave and return, leave and return going about Her life. Very literally only seeing Her Divine self when She needed to go to the bathroom. Neither spoken to nor regarding as existing... just a thing? Would Maitresse be able to slip in to such a role?? To very much regard the slave as a thing She owns? She is such a wonderful Maitresse, i do wonder. i also believe that the sheet hiding the slave's body helped with the scene. i can't help but think that it helps to enhance the session for Maitresse... that it helps Her to regard the toilet as a thing and not a person as She is not looking at a person's body. i have wondered a great deal what Maitresse thought of the session and the direction of future services to Her. More than anything else though i wonder about living off of Her wastes for a while... of taking my toilet service to Her to a level few aspire and fewer achieve. i wonder if She wants such a slave... to what edge She is interested in. Hopefully time will reveal Her thoughts, desires, and even fantasies. i have said several times that a slave exists to enhance its Owners being and i sincerely hope to become the exact type of toilet slave She desires. i have dreams and aspirations, sure, but i want to make sure that more than anything i fulfill Hers... that i am able to be the toilet slave (both in depth and proficiency) that She considers ideal.

Maitresse, You are truly a unique Goddess and i am so very blessed to know and serve You. i have been such a lucky slave to have been blessed with knowing and serving You. You are truly one in a million dear Maitresse. If W/we parted ways tomorrow i have been more fortunate than most for having known You. i do, of course, hope to continue my devoted service to my Divine One... thank You for blessing my life thus far. Thank You as well for the wonderful background picture You provided the slave. i think it is a wonderful picture.